Varun Nair’s Personal Blog

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Question: What’s better than getting an iPod?

Answer: Getting an iPod for free

Took part in some survey couple of months back. Seems like mine was one of the 1st 100 entries and got a silver 2GB 2nd Generation iPod Nano in the ensuing lucky draw.

We don’t have a very good collection of music at home so am still not making much use of the iPod. Hope to correct that shortly.

Quick Movie Reviews: Apocalypto, Honeymoon Travels and 300

Saw 3 new movies in the last 2 weeks.

Apocalypto was nice. Not much of a story in there but once the movie starts moving it keeps you glued to what is going on. Fast-paced and sightly gruesome is how I would describe it. Reminded me of Arnie’s Predator.

Honeymoon Travels Pvt. Ltd. was also nice. Again no story in there but at least you won’t get bored. Don’t go with too high expectations and you will not be disappointed.

300 was the worst English movie I have seen in recent times. I wonder how it has become such a big hit. Unreal imagery and dialogues that reminded me of some crappy Hindi movies. And it also reminded me again and again of Sunny Deol

Bangalore weekend - Short post

Landed up in Bangalore on Saturday morning. Met up with Pratik, Gunjan, Moin, Subodh (Potli), Steve and Vineet. Went to a a few good places on Brigade Street (Alibi, Guzzlers and Corner House). Met Pratik’s friends and Vineet’s friends. Then moved onto Palace grounds for the Iron Maiden concert.

Parikrama was nice, Lauren Harris were OK (crowd booed them but somehow I liked their music) but Iron Maiden were awesome. The atmosphere was electric and crazy. Had lot of fun. Was terribly tired with legs aching.

Moved onto Pebbles, a nice pub near Palace grounds. My brother was bartending there… this is the first time I have seen him bartending. Was nice. Felt very proud. Have always known him to be a good chef and bartender but this was the first time I am seeing him bartending. Enjoyed with friends.

Then went to Java City, a nice cafe at the end of Church Street. Met up with Vineet’s gang. Full of nice and weird people. Nice people are always weird. At least in my friends’ circle they are.

Then came back to Pratik’s house. Had a nice hot bath and simply crashed. Woke up around an hour back. Gang is now going to a place called Samarkand on Infantry Road. Over and out for now.

EDITED TO ADD [26 March]: Pic added.

The Struggle

I almost titled this post “The Rat Race” or “My Quarter-life Crisis”.

It’s weird. Each passing day makes me feel that I am in a rat race, not your usual rat race but a rat race with myself. I want to keep doing better, learn more, do more, earn more, become more efficient, in general become more than what I currently am. Is this usual? Is this abnormal? Is this good? I don’t know. On one hand I am not unhappy with the way things are going in my personal life and professional life. On the other hand sometimes I feel very inadequate and unsuccessful.

Don’t mistake it for self-pity, it is nowhere close to that. I am probably too proud to ever have any self-pity. It is more of a feeling to reach the stars but failing and falling flat on my face. Weird, huh?

I am surrounded by superachievers. Well… most of them don’t know it But I _am_ surrounded by lots of cool people. People whose work I admire and whose thought processes sometimes leave me speechless. These people inspire me to do something more something better. Of course I am very competitive by nature so I guess my intention is to surpass them. This feeling goads me on to do something wonderful… something so good and miraculous that it washes away all these doubts. I law awake at night mulling about what I did that day, what remained undone, what remains to be done and how I am going to do it.

However I know that I am no genius and miracles are well, miraculous. I am in a constant struggle against myself, against what I am and for what I want to be.

So what do I do? There is so much to do and so little time. Maybe I should stop blogging and spend more time doing things. Naah… that would be very boring. Let’s see… I have to do something about this, in fact I am already somethings about this. Maybe that should be the topic of another post some other time.

Yawn

Am feeling very lazy today. The weather is also cool and cloudy, the kind of weather and infuses lethargy into you. Wish it were a Saturday.